For a while...

As of the moment, I have a lot of questions about my perspectives in life. Recently, I lost my interest on pursuing my dreams and goals... The reasons are unidentified. Even I can't admit what is truly happening to me. I know that I slowly loosing myself because of being so negative and self-centered.
But I made it to the point that I realized something. It is when after I heard about my horoscope that day. "You will loose the people close to you if you will not make some actions to change your bad attitudes and outlook in life.." That's what it said. I took a moment to think about it and ask myself, Do I still know myself right now?
The following day, somebody approach me. Because of that I was able to know that I'm different and not the same as before. then, suddenly I realized that I'm pushing myself on the end of my destination. I immediately examine myself and try to understand things clearly. I make a lot of considerations and allow myself to discovers the factors affecting the way I am.
It is not easy to be me... But I'm thankful to have people that would give me the wisdom I need in order to be a better person without removing the unique personality I have. Everyone of us must pause for a while and examine one's self. Do it to be better and not to be for pretender.

Suddenly...

Every day, I tried to be okey. I tried to act as if I'm so happy. But I can't escape my past that continues to ruin my innocent mind.
I am not perfect. I am still a human being who commit mistakes that may destroy my entire life. Everyday is a nightmare every time I think about it. I admit I made mistakes that I regret a lot.
But God is so good. He gave me a chance to change. I may did a lot of mistakes but one thing made my life right. It was when I decided to take the opportunity to change for one special person. A person whom I never thought to be my inspiration now. A guy who is very opposite to me and make me realize how life will be worth living for if you are determined to be positive and confident to face challenges of life....