For a while...

As of the moment, I have a lot of questions about my perspectives in life. Recently, I lost my interest on pursuing my dreams and goals... The reasons are unidentified. Even I can't admit what is truly happening to me. I know that I slowly loosing myself because of being so negative and self-centered.
But I made it to the point that I realized something. It is when after I heard about my horoscope that day. "You will loose the people close to you if you will not make some actions to change your bad attitudes and outlook in life.." That's what it said. I took a moment to think about it and ask myself, Do I still know myself right now?
The following day, somebody approach me. Because of that I was able to know that I'm different and not the same as before. then, suddenly I realized that I'm pushing myself on the end of my destination. I immediately examine myself and try to understand things clearly. I make a lot of considerations and allow myself to discovers the factors affecting the way I am.
It is not easy to be me... But I'm thankful to have people that would give me the wisdom I need in order to be a better person without removing the unique personality I have. Everyone of us must pause for a while and examine one's self. Do it to be better and not to be for pretender.

Suddenly...

Every day, I tried to be okey. I tried to act as if I'm so happy. But I can't escape my past that continues to ruin my innocent mind.
I am not perfect. I am still a human being who commit mistakes that may destroy my entire life. Everyday is a nightmare every time I think about it. I admit I made mistakes that I regret a lot.
But God is so good. He gave me a chance to change. I may did a lot of mistakes but one thing made my life right. It was when I decided to take the opportunity to change for one special person. A person whom I never thought to be my inspiration now. A guy who is very opposite to me and make me realize how life will be worth living for if you are determined to be positive and confident to face challenges of life....

dO this to ur gf sumday

So it was their7th monthanniverseryand the girl calls her boyfriend::girl:I love you.- Boy:Yeah I know everyone does!-Girl:Really?- Boy:Yeah...everyone of my friends that aregirls tell me that everyday.- Girl:Oh...but am I only your friend?- Boy:No...you're my girlfriend...why?- Girl:So when I say I love you I really domean it.- Boy:Yeah I know you do mean it...its justthat you dont need to tell me that youlove me anymore cuz I know you love mesince the day we been together and ilove you more each and everyday.- Girl:......- Boy:So wanna go somewhere tonight for our 7month anniversary?- Girl:Yeah...where?- Boy:I dont know...maybe movie then dinner?-Girl:Ok.- Boy:Ill pick you up after I get off and getready ok?- Girl:Ok. What time do you get off?- Boy:In 2 hours and then I gotta gohome and yeah get ready which takesabout 15-20 mintues...-Girl:hey...I thought you didnt have worktoday...- Boy:One of my co-workers called in sick.- Girl:Oh okay! So sill see you around 7:30then?- Boy:Yeah! and babe?- Girl:Yeah?- Boy:I love you.- Girl:I love you too!- Boy:Ok my manager is like looking at me soyeah.... i gotta go.- Girl:Ok bye.- Boy:Bye.****************************2 hours later...The guy drives to his girlfriends houseand walks up to the door and ringsbell.- Girl:Hey! (gives a kiss to her boyfriend)- Boy:Wassup...you ready?- Girl:Um...wait...let me get my bag and wecan go ok?- Boy:Ok.They both watched a movie and atedinner...once they were done eatingthey headed back to the car but beforeshe got into the car...- Boy:Wait! Can I blind fold you?- Girl:Why??!- Boy:Its a suprise.- Girl:What kind of suprise?- Boy:A big one.- Girl:Okay but only if you promise me thatyou will hold my hand while we'redriving.- Boy:I promise.- Girl:Ok blind fold me...So they drove off...........and thenthey stopped.- Boy:Ok we're here!-Girl:Where?- Boy:Wait let me walk you to the place!- Girl:What place?- Boy:Somewhere! (and gives a kiss to her onthe lips)- Girl:Baby!...The boy walks her to the place.- Boy:Ok...let me take the blind fold off.- Girl:Where are we?He takes it off her and she opens hereyes and sees the view of the city andat that same spot...that's where hefirst asked her to be hisgirlfriend....- Girl:Omg...(tears come down)- Boy:Why are you crying?- Girl:This is where you first asked me out...- Boy:What are you doing the rest of yourlife? (he asked on his knees and afterhe says that...behind him...in the airit says "Will you marry me?" infireworks)- Girl:(tears come down faster)- Boy:I wasnt at work when you called me...Iwas planning this whole thing!- Girl:Get up!- Boy:Yeah?- Girl:(kisses him)- Boy:Is that a yes or a no?- Girl:Yes.